Playgirl's Mechanical World (playgirl) wrote,
Playgirl's Mechanical World


My Tree of Life Thanks You!

I woke up this morning, feeling a little embarrassed by my admission in my prior post, but I’m glad I let the cat out of the bag, so to speak.

It’s rare when I find myself at a loss for words, and I find myself at a loss in replying to all those who listened, and tried to find a solution to my problem. I read each and every one of your comments and advice carefully, and will try to follow up on your advice.

As for the phobia that I have, nobody can understand how something like this totally controls your life. Only my family, and my 3 best friends know what it is, and they all do everything in their power to try to protect me from encountering it. I have a few enemies in real life, and many in cyberspace, and am sure they’d try to expose it in front of me to traumatize me with it if they knew what this phobia was. I’m afraid of NOTHING, not even death, but this phobia, which goes beyond fear, will be kept secret for the rest of my life, a side from those I’ve mentioned, will be taken to the grave, because I have sought help from a shrink, and as much as he tried to help me, he was unsuccessful. I’ve come to accept it, and will only continue doing everything in my power to avoid confrontation with it.

This phobia is a million times more embarrassing than my bed wetting, because I have accidentally found myself right in front of it in public, where I’ve lost total control of every fiber of my mental and physical being. As I mentioned before, only those who have a phobia can really understand what I’m saying.

Again, thank you all for trying to come to my aide in my last post. I’m so lucky to have found you in cyberspace. You are truly wonderful!

"One can pay back the loan of gold, but one
dies forever in debt to those who are kind."
- Malayan Proverb

Now, for a little humor. I only hope you kids won’t start calling me Ms. Pee Body, instead of Ms. Playgirl! :o)


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