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My lips are raw from all the kissing I did yesterday in my Cyberspace Kissing Booth! There are many more beautiful people that are waiting for Playgirl’s FREE Valentine’s Day kiss. Just as soon as I rub my lips with Chap Stick, I’ll continue puckering my lips until I finish kissing them all! Thanks to all who stood in line at Playgirl’s Kissing Booth, waiting for a kiss! Is it possible to care so much for people in cyberspace? Yes it is, because I care and love you all.

Oh yes, and I still have to finish welcoming all the rest who were so sweet to appear in my ROLL CALL post the other day! :o)

Yesterday was such a fun LJ day for me, but I had to interrupt it because I had to go to the doctor.

I developed this strange little bump on my right thumb, right next to my nail, about 2 months ago. Instead of going away, it’s gotten bigger and pretty painful. I then noticed another one coming out right next to it. What my doctor told me was pretty unbelievable. Seems I got them due to stress and anxiety!! Yes, my life is a bundle of stress, and some of you know that I often times drive far into the desert at night and start running like a mad person, screaming at the top of my lungs to let it all out. Hope I never bump into a little old rattlesnake! Anyway, not to worry, I won’t ever land in a Funny Farm, because I do this all alone, where nobody can see or hear me! :o)

My doctor told me he gets those bumps sometimes, too, and that stress can cause many skin ailments, such as this bump I got. Hives and rash are commen, too. I never knew this! I’m the type of person that tends to keeps worries inside. The only place I permit myself to erupt like a volcano is here in my journal, where those who read me, know exactly what’s inside; all the good, the bad, and the ugly.

He wanted to prescribe some medication called Xanax or something, but I told him I didn’t want any drugs, and would learn to deal with it myself. One thing I did ask for, and that was more sleeping pills, but he refused! I continue to have problems falling asleep, and last night, when I finally did, I woke up twice with 2 different upsetting dreams. I dreamt that one of my cats had been run over in front of my house. It was one of my gray cats, and I kept seeing it thrashing about in agony. In the 2nd dream, I got up to go get a drink of water in the kitchen, and when I got there, the kitchen floor was flooded. I looked at the hot water heater and saw that it had exploded.

I have an appointment on the 23rd of this month for some blood tests. I’m having a really hard time controlling my blood sugar. For example, I had a few peanuts this morning, and when I poked myself, it was 179, which is ridiculous! I hope to God I won’t eventually end up on insulin!

I’ve often wondered about something. I use to have a little dog that had diabetes, and I would have to give her insulin shots everyday, and have her on a special diet. I DID not have diabetes then. One day, I somehow stuck the needle into my finger, and gave myself her insulin. I know it’s a stupid question, but does anyone know if perhaps I got diabetes because of this? I’m too embarrassed to ask my doctor this stupid question.

I didn’t go to work today, nor will I go tomorrow. I made Dad stay here in my house today so Grandpa and I can take care of him. He is to be on clear liquids all day today, and at 4 p.m., I gave him 3 fl oz. of Wal-Phosphate, and at 6 p.m., I'm to give him 2 Dulcolax laxative pills, then at 8 p.m. I'm to give him 3 mor oz. of that W-P. He almost fainted on me about an hour ago. He was out back working on my yard with Grandpa, when he started feeling very faint. He doesn't have Diabetes, but when I poked him with my stuff, his blood sugar was at 60, which is very bad. I gave him a cracker and it went up to 77. I’ll have him at the hospital before 9 a.m. tomorrow for surgery.

I'm very worried about Grandpa. I'll write about it in another post.

My brother also leaves for Iraq tomorrow.

So many worries.


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Feb. 16th, 2007 12:48 am (UTC)

No worries, mate. Things have a habit of working themselves out, regardless if we worry or not. Distract yourself from fret by playing with your many animals. You deserve a break from the stress
Feb. 18th, 2007 05:45 pm (UTC)
Were it not for my fur babies, I know I'd go bananas!

Thank you Sweety Pie for caring!
Feb. 16th, 2007 12:57 am (UTC)
Diabetes isn't contagious. There can be a genetic component, and with some people a lifestyle and diet issue. You don't really appear to have the lifestyle issues, such as high calorie diet, higher levels of abdominal fat, and low exercise. Some people are just more prone to it.

High glucose levels are nothing to screw around with though. Most people do not realize the long term effects of having high glucose levels. Heart attack and stroke risks skyrocket. Many diabetics die an agonizing death from kidney failure. Hyperglycemia can also lead to blindness, along with nerve and blood vessel damage leading to chronic pain in your extremities.

If I ever get it, I might try medication just to see if it helps enough, but if not I'm going straight to insulin. That along with constant blood monitoring really has the best success rate.

I'm not trying to scare you, but its best to have it checked out and treated early. I don't want to see a sweet girl like you have those sorts of problems.
Feb. 18th, 2007 04:31 pm (UTC)
I had always wondered if by accidentally poking myself and injecting my little dogs insulin, I had somehow messed myself up for future Diabetes. Not even having Penny, my little dog in the animal hospital for a week helped. She was my baby since I was still at home, and I did the unthinkable and prolonged her agony longer than I should have, because I couldn’t bear living without her. She suffered so much, and was totally blind, when I finally stopped being a selfish bitch, and had her put to sleep.

I know you're not trying to scare me. Diabetes is horrible. My greatest concern is future amputation of limbs or blindness. What concerns me now is that I am very active, and try to watch everything I eat, but my blood sugar still goes up. I keep away completely from sugar, but have found that foods like a simple carrot wedge, or tomato will shoot my sugar up.

The day I took my Dad to the hospital, my blood sugar was at 203.

I can hardly wait for my appointment to see what is going on.

Thank you for all your information. It has thoroughly alerted me even more, to the dangers of Diabetes!
Feb. 16th, 2007 12:59 am (UTC)
You can't give yourself diabetes by giving yourself an insuling shot. It's genetic so you were gonna get it long before your got that shot. You can bring it on earlier by eating a lot of sugary foods. But if you aren't going to get it, you never will.

It sounds like your dad has hypoglacimia. That can be even worse than diabetes. But it is controlable, he just has to be careful about when and what he eats. Unlike you, he needs to eat sugary foods from time to time. I used to work with a guy who had it.

I will pray for your brother.

I wish I could help you ease out that stress. Working out always helps me with stress. But it sounds like you need another way to ease your stress. Wish I could help you somehow. *big hugs*
Feb. 18th, 2007 05:25 pm (UTC)
I believe you're right about dad, and will make him go takes a blood test to see if he has hypoglacimia. When we got to the hospital, I left a not for the doctor about his blood sugar going down to 60 the day before.

Diabetes runs rampantly on my Mom's side of the family, as Cancer runs on my Dad's side. I always felt that I would get Diabetes, but much later in life. I believe I got it during my Mom's death. I, as well as my whole family, went to incredible stress and anxiety during that time of my life.

Now, Dad, Grandpa, my brother, and my little fur babies cause me great worry. I'm just a worry wart and can't seem to help it.

Thank you for caring, I truly appreciate it!
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Feb. 16th, 2007 01:06 am (UTC)
I'm sorry to hear that you're so stressed-out!
You seem to vent so freely in your LJ, I presumed you didn't bottle it up in Real Life, either. I applaud your idea of driving off and having a good holler...sometimes I wonder if I could have avoided blood pressure medicine if I did the same. Know what keeps my blood pressure down (apart from the prescription, of course)...? Hard physical work! It's when I don't have TIME to get enough exercise, that I get the most stress.

I doubt if the exposure to insulin would cause diabetes. You do have to watch what you eat, however. I've been helping advise a friend who is diabetic AND sensitive to salt. And arthritic. So she can't get proper exercise and has to be very careful what she eats...yipes!

I agree with you that you should try to make lifestyle changes so that you don't have to go on prescriptions like Xanax. They're good, for what they do...but it's better to try to work out a strategy where you use them as little as possible.

I know stress can create some mighty strange symptoms. In my case, I break out in acne (which happened most recently when an ex-girlfriend came over for a visit...eurgh!)...oh, and at one point a few years ago, I had blisters breaking out all over my arms! I even posted photos on my LJ. It now seems likely that was from stress.

I hope you can get some sleep. Perhaps you could go someplace for a good massage; might reduce your stress levels, and relax you enough to get proper sleep.
Mar. 1st, 2007 10:02 pm (UTC)
Re: I'm sorry to hear that you're so stressed-out!
I'm sorry Paul that I'm just now replying to your comment, but I believe it was during the time when I didn't have email. I just now saw it.

Yes, I tend to bottle problems inside, and I do it so well, that all my friends and family are envious of me because they believe I'm as cool as a cucumber.

When ever you start feeling as though you're going to explode with frustration and anger, just drive somewhere where you'll be all alone for miles, and start crying and screaming at the top of your lungs. Believe me, when you're through, you'll get this big smile on your face, and may even giggle at yourself for doing it!! :o)

I still continue having problems sleeping, and for this, I see no solution at all. Thank God I can go watch TV or tinker with my computer to make the night pass more quickly. Sometimes I even bake bread in the wee hours of the morning! Sounds great, huh? Only problem is, I can only eat a tiny bite or else my sugar goes haywire! I tell you, I'm totally screwed! Haaaa Oh well, at least Grandpa loves it and can eat as much as he wants.

Sending you love and lots of hugs Sweety Pie!!
Feb. 16th, 2007 01:13 am (UTC)
I wish your brother the best.

I wish your father the best.

I wish you would stop worrying. no, you can't give yourself diabetes, especially from an animal. Diabetes is either diet/exercise (lack of) or hereditary

I wish you a good night's sleep.
Feb. 18th, 2007 05:35 pm (UTC)
I will try not to worry, and I'll try to sleep!

Thank you so much for your well wishes for my dad and brother. I pray I have them both in my life for many, many more years to come.
Feb. 16th, 2007 02:34 am (UTC)
as everyone else has said You did not give yourself diabetes. It is either genetically or lifestyle caused. I have been diabetic for many many years and control it with meds even though it probably was 5 years before I knew it because of a stupid doctor, his nurse tole me.

Take heart little one, they will take care of you once they have a blood test and know your levels.

Prayers and good wishes are being sent out for not only for your Brother but for the ones that he will be working with. This weekend I will be building a special prayer fire and asking the Great Spirit to watch over them all.

Huggles and bunches of love to you little one..

Mar. 1st, 2007 09:52 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry I'm just now replying to your comment, but I believe it was during the time when I didn't have email. I just now saw it.

You and my dad are proof that doctors can literally screw up!! With my dad it was much more serious, because his regular doctor had checked him for prostate cancer and took it lightly when he told my dad that it felt a little hard. My dad went one whole year, until it was obvious something was seriously wrong! Had that bastard of a doctor sent him to a specialist to have it checked, my dad most lightly wouldn't have had to have his prostate taken off, and what enrages me to this day, is the fact that after the operation, it was found that dad’s cancer wasn't contained anymore!

As for my blood sugar ordeal, I now see it has to do with stress. The last of January, my mother's death anniversary, dad's polyps, dad's PSA results and my brother going to Iraq has just shot it out of control. I'm starting to calm down a little. :o)

Love and hugs, Sweet One!
Feb. 16th, 2007 04:34 am (UTC)
awww, i missed the kissing booth.
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Mar. 1st, 2007 09:43 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry I'm just now replying to your comment, but I believe it was during the time when I didn't have email. I just now saw it.

I want to thank you so much for this information, and the link, which puts my suspicions at rest, that I didn't give myself diabetes by accidently injecting myself with my little dogs insulin.

I now realize that the stress I've been going through these couple of months are the cause for the rise in my blood sugar.

Feb. 16th, 2007 06:38 am (UTC)
I hope tomorrow goes well for you.
Feb. 18th, 2007 05:40 pm (UTC)
It went very well.

Thank you Sweety Pie!
Feb. 16th, 2007 07:51 am (UTC)
Sunshine I wish I could take all your stress away and also know I am keeping your dad, brother, grandpa and you in my thoughts when ever I pray, love you Savanah

And Don't ever worry you never gave your self diabetes and if something is bothering you don't be afraid to ask someone about it that might know the answers, hope you can find a way to let the stress out

Sending you all my love!!!!!
Feb. 16th, 2007 03:07 pm (UTC)
With all that you have going on it's no wonder you are having a little stress.
My recommendation is to let the lips loose and forget all else.

Feb. 18th, 2007 05:39 pm (UTC)
I'm taking your recommendation, and will pucker my lips and continue giving kisses until my brother is back home, safe and sound! :o)

Hugs you back Sweety Pie!
Feb. 16th, 2007 06:19 pm (UTC)
Sweetie, stress can make your blood sugar go haywire no matter what you eat, how much you exercise, etc. For a diabetic, managing stress can be as essential as managing food intake and physical activity. If Xanax can help you manage your stress, it is worth looking into, at least on a trail basis. Try it for a month or two and see if your glucose readings start getting better. I was on Xanax, or some such med, for a few months when I first got diagnosed to help manage stress for diabetic reasons.
Feb. 18th, 2007 04:41 pm (UTC)
You are right! It's the stress and anxiety that's affecting my blood sugar. The day I took Dad, I bought an egg and chorizo burrito from this lady who was selling them outside the building. I only ate half of it with a diet Pepsi, and when I got home, my blood sugar was 203. I realize I shouldn't have eaten any of the flour tortilla, but I didn't eat that much of it to raise my sugar so high.

I kept poking myself throughout the day, and it finally went down to 134, which was still a touch too high. I didn't eat anything at all for the day.

I will ask my doctor to prescribe the Xanax, because at this point, I'm going to end up skin and bone.

I have too many worries about loved ones. Dads up coming PSA test, and worrying about my brother will be most stressful for me. I'm even stressed out about my cats. I worry that they stay safe and not get run over.
Feb. 16th, 2007 07:48 pm (UTC)
Stress does many bad things to us physically and mentally/emotionally. It is difficult to control, but we must control it..... So PLEASE learn how to turn it off....how to control it.

Your blood sugar level listed above is too high.....

Are you getting enough physical exercise and activity? Many times that will help control stress.....

How is your father doing? I know you are still at the hospital, but let us know as soon as you can.

Take care.....Love you!!!
Feb. 18th, 2007 04:51 pm (UTC)
If I were eating candy and stuff I shouldn't eat, I could see why the sugar would go so high, but I'm not.

I have a regular gym in my back porch, from things I've managed to find and buy at swap meets for very little money. I also ride my bike, run, and go swimming in the summer.

Sadly, each New Year that comes, I find I have a brand new thing to worry about. I've been worried sick ever since my dad got cancer, I worry about Grandpa, I worry about my cats, and now I'm worried sick for my brother.

Dad did great, but now we'll have to wait 3 to 4 weeks for the results. The wait is what almost kills you with stress!

Love you and thank you for caring!
(no subject) - a_phoenix - Feb. 20th, 2007 07:51 pm (UTC) - Expand
Feb. 17th, 2007 05:28 am (UTC)
((HUGS)) Love you Sunshine!
Feb. 17th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC)
Hugs and love, Sweety Pie!
Where is my Sunshine? - moon_shine3 - Feb. 26th, 2007 04:40 am (UTC) - Expand
Feb. 17th, 2007 07:16 am (UTC)
awww, i missed the kissing booth
Feb. 17th, 2007 10:31 pm (UTC)
No you didn't! Sending you a great big Juicy Fruit Kiss right now!
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