I'd like to thank those LJ friend's who took the time to express their kind thoughts in my last post. I really appreciate it!
After giving it much thought, I still decided not to go to the services; anyway, I will not be missed because we are a very large family. The rosary was yesterday and the funeral will be tomorrow morning. Even if I would change my mind about going, it’s already too late. Of course, I will not change my mind.
I will not spend another minute of my life, dwelling on this thing, and just get on with my life as usual.
I don't know if family curses truly exist, but I'm seriously starting to believe that my CLAN is cursed. Too many tragedies have happened thorough out the years to this family; tragedies that just don't happen in other families.
Again, thank you for your well wishes!
I'm most definitely back to my USUAL disgusting self again!