Playgirl's Mechanical World (playgirl) wrote,
Playgirl's Mechanical World

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Color Playgirl Gray

I never felt it possible, to grow to love a LJ friend as I have and to feel those exact same emotions that I feel for a REAL life friend, but I have.

For the first time in my life, I lost a LJ friend this year through death, and I have mourned him as though I'd known him personally and I grieve for the woman he adored and left behind, because I can feel her agonizing pain even from afar.

I have countless flawed qualities, and a couple of them are that I'm so damn unpredictable and as stubborn as a mule, and I'm much too fervent about people and life, but one good trait I do posses, and that is my fierce LOVE and LOYALTY to my family, my friends and my country. Call it intolerable if you wish, but I do expect that same allegiance from them also; nothing more, nothing less.

Once again, I find myself in deep sorrow; because I've lost another LJ friend through totally different circumstances; a friend I'd grown to love, respect and admire with all my heart, and who without him realizing, had become some kind of mentor for me.

I find it necessary to take you off my FList and say good-bye beloved LJ friend. You will never fully comprehend the extent of grief I'm undergoing right now because of it.

You know I speak of YOU.

I wish you all the good things in life, and I will carry you in my heart with love always.

I shall soon go through the process of restructuring my psyche, as I zigzag through these murky passageways which have somehow, and so abruptly emerged, once again, in my travels through the constant windstorms of my life.

There's such sorrow in the air. Can't you smell it? I can.

"God allows us to experience the low points of life
in order to teach us lessons we could not learn in
any other way. The way we learn those lessons is
not to deny the feelings but to find the meanings
underlying them."
- Stanley Lindquist

"God will not look you over for medals
degrees or diplomas, but for scars."
Elbert Hubbard

Playgirl's Amor de Música Romántica
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Ship Without a Course

Join The NRA

"The Right Of The People To Keep and
Bear Arms, Shall Not Be infringed."

Join the U.S. Army

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